Okay time to see a therapist

I had been advised I should go see one because I am not a therapist or a psychologist so I must go to a therapist. I am just going around in circles and will never get answers and I was told I was making up scenarios that never happened, whatever that means.

And if a therapist refuses to discuss my ex and about the stuff she did, I will just get a new therapist. My last one shut me down and didn’t want to talk about it. That is not a good therapist but it was just a therapist in training. Perhaps I need to see one who specializes in domestic abuse. They will talk about it and I will hear an expert opinion than from  random strangers online. So today after I get up again I will look online at therapists and see if any of them take Medicare and if not, I will also try the free ones again and hope they know about domestic abuse and studied it and they would also have to know about disorders too so they can help me figure it out. I have been obsessing about domestic abuse for over a year now. Also maybe I will get to hear their expert opinion on abusers faking disorders and see what they say. All I have seen online was that being written by users than by experts. I have not once seen a article anywhere online about narcissists or borderliners faking disabilities or mental illnesses to hide behind it.