Tuesday, August 29th, 2017
It’s like I got my old room back. I remember when my mom moved my husband to the basement and have it meant to be a family area too for our kids and she moved me into my husband’s old bedroom and they moved into my old room from the basement. I realized the bedroom was bigger than the room down in the basement because they could fit all their clothes in there and their stuff than having half of it in the laundry room. Then when my son turned five, I got moved to the basement and my son got his own room. He moved into my new old bedroom. that was once my husband’s. But for the past year I had been sleeping on the couch in the living room because my husband snores and it was like I didn’t have a bedroom. I got used to not having one because I didn’t need one. I only needed a place to sleep. All my clothes were in the laundry room and my stuff was in the basement too and some of it was in the living room. My mom felt so bad I had to be on the couch but I told her I didn’t get kicked out of my room, my husband just snores. So now I am back in my room and my parents are still moving out of there. All my clothes are up there and my dresser and the TV and my Amiibos and ROB and I have my WiiU in there and the game chair and my Wii and WiiU games and the Wii Fit board and the yoga mat and the Wii controllers and accessories and my Shopkins and keychains. but I won’t get both closets back because my parents will be using one of them for their clothes because they have so many they can’t fit them all out there in their dresser and RV and storage bins. Plus I think they will leave their chest in there and they left their big bed in there. They also left two of their dressers in there so I was able to fit my clothes in there and blankets but I had to put my jeans on the floor in my closet and some shirts because my mom still has her clothes in the bottom drawer and she doesn’t want me touching it. She is someone who likes her things to stay where she has them and not have them moved to another spot for her to go through while my Dad doesn’t mind tossing things into boxes just to get them out of there and go through later. I am the same way. I also got rid of some of my clothes too while moving them all upstairs. I also have too many of them but my mom has more than me. I also got rid of my nursing bras because they got too big for me. I mostly wear sport bras now and I have C cup bras. Nursing shrunk my boobs. Now they are deflated and saggy and when I lay on my back, I look flat chested and they feel like skin when I touch them and squeeze them.
My husband is thinking of moving his computer upstairs to the living room and I told him he better not bring his mess up here. We could move the computer desk up here too and the basement could be his bedroom now and a game room for the old games but I might move the little TV up to my room and maybe one of the IKEA shelves. I am still moving in my new bedroom.
Monday, August 21st, 2017
Today was the day it happened. I got up early and woke my dad up and my daughter and we all left after eight to drive a little south to see the full eclipse. My husband had the app on his phone he bought for two dollars telling him what zone will be the full eclipse and once we reached that zone, we saw a bunch of cars on the side of the road and we all pulled over and it had already started. It took us less than an hour to get there.
I looked at it through my solar glasses while my kids sat in the trunk and my dad had the cooler out and my husband and my dad stood outside while I sat in the car and waited and I would look at the solar eclipse off and on and the outside got darker and darker and then the moon covered the sun and it was very dark, different than when clouds cover it, and people clapped and cheered and it lasted a few seconds before it started to shine again. Then everyone started to leave and we left too. We tried to get a picture of it but it was too bright. This was the first time I had ever seen a solar eclipse and I hope my kids will remember this too. I hear the next one in the US will be down in Texas so I couldn’t miss this one and thanks to this day, there wasn’t much trash at work or compost or recycling so I figured most people stayed home for the event. So I left work a half hour early because I was done and saw no reason to stay until my shift was over if less people came to work and didn’t make a big mess in the building.
Saturday, August 5th, 2017
Ever since I started to go jogging, I decided to wear a sports bra and no shirt and wear work out shorts. I do it to keep cool. But I have noticed some attention like one guy honking at me and then turning back onto the road and then into a parking lot and pulling over and speaking to me in Spanish. Then he drove off fast when I told him I didn’t speak any Spanish. Some guys will honk at me as they drive by or even shout out the window. This doesn’t happen all the time and it only happens sometimes when I work out and it’s really easy to ignore. Is this what women complain about when they show their bodies? Some attention that is so easy to ignore? It’s not like men are following me and calling me names or picking on me. I told my husband about it and he said “You want to get raped?” I said no and I am going to see how much attention I can get and he goes “be careful, I don’t want you to get raped.” I then asked him if that is what women complain about with that little attention and they act like they get it on a daily basis from every person. My husband told me I don’t feel the same way about it as women do and to talk to my mother about it because maybe she will explain it better. I wonder if fat women get attention too or is it only pretty women and thin women? I wonder if skinny fat women also get attention. If so, then that means nothing for my body. I always figure it’s just men being immature so I ignore it.
Tuesday, August 1st, 2017
I know I would say I would try all week before moving on but since he doesn’t respond to my texts, I decided to just move on so I didn’t call him this morning to tell him I am going for a walk again. I don’t know why he asked for my number and why he said he wanted to run with me but I find it weird he wouldn’t know who I am when I got a hold of him twice and he didn’t fit any of the symptoms for “signs someone likes you more than a friend” (I looked it up) so this was all very strange. He even called me at 5 in the morning yesterday and i didn’t even pick up because I was still sleeping and the phone call woke me up and I didn’t want to talk so I let it ring. I figured it could be him because no one calls this early in the morning unless you have a wake up call requested or if your friends know you are up that early and I told him I get up between seven and eight. But I texted him after I called him that morning and I never got a response. Oh well.