Monday, March 13th, 2017
Last night I was taking a shower and I asked my mother if my brother took home his son’s presents my dad forgot to give him. My mom said he was leaving it here for his kids to play with because they can’t play it at their house (must be against the HOA rules) because he might not see it again if he left it at *Marlene’s, his ex.
I had no idea she would steal it and not let my brother ever take it home with him but my mom said she didn’t steal it because it was her present too because it was for her son. I said but she might not let my brother take it with him and my mom said no he might want to play it with his kids but it would be at Marlene’s because he forgot it. So I said but he might never get it back right because he would never see it again. My mom said that is not what she meant so I pointed out to her she said he might never see it again so that means she wouldn’t let him have it and would just keep it at her house and not ever give it back. My mom then said she can see how I got that wrong picture in my head and said what she meant. It still didn’t make sense why she would say my brother might never see it again.
What did she mean? She meant that he might not be able to play with it with his kids because it would be at Marlene’s house. I didn’t say again to my mother “But she might not give it back to him if he ever tries to get it from her to bring is home with the kids when he picks them up for his turn with them. But I didn’t want to get her upset and frustrated for saying the same thing over and over so I kept it to myself because she will keep saying that is not what she meant. She did say hew might never see it again. How can that not mean she won’t ever let him have it again if he tries to bring it back with him? She even said she meant it literally. No she did not. Just another example of my mom’s strange language.
Monday, January 9th, 2017
I want to say here there won’t be anymore posts about my other going crazy because I decided I am going to keep it private and only write about it in Microsoft Office to keep track of the incidents as they occur so I know how often this stuff happens and then bring it to my husband’s attention and see what he thinks and my dad too because I feel too nervous bringing it up to my mother. No need to have the whole world read it even though less than 10 people read this blog a day.
Saturday, January 7th, 2017
Today my mom came home from work and I was in the middle of reading a intense book on my Kindle. I was so focused on the story I couldn’t switch gears from the story to my mother. My mom comes home and she starts talking and I just want to be left alone. I hate interruptions. She asked me if I had a better day today. Better day? What better day? I had a bad day yesterday? I tried to think of yesterday and what happened that day. I couldn’t remember anything bad happening yesterday. My son was in school, my daughter played all day, I was on my computer and she played hard and kept herself busy. I think my mom’s brain was at it again. But I was too focused on the story to even ask what happened yesterday and she goes “sorry I bothered you” as if she had gotten the hint I was trying to read.
Thursday, January 5th, 2017
This morning I told her it was cold outside again and how we can’t take the weathermen seriously here because the weather is too unpredictable they can’t even keep up. It’s like the weather is Bipolar. Polar weather people call it. But anyway my mom said it’s supposed to be cold out today and this week and I said yesterday she said it was supposed to warm up and she said I never said that. I told her she did and she said that was my husband.
I know I am not crazy and she really did say that. But I didn’t argue because I didn’t find it a big deal if she thinks my husband said it but I know she said clearly “it’s supposed to warm up today” and it never did that day.
Sunday, January 1st, 2017
She keeps on doing it and it’s like gas lighting.
Today we were playing the game of Trouble the Minions version with her and my son and nephew. I overheard my mom say to my son to quit cheating and then after my nephew won in second place (I won first) and then I saw my son pushing on the dice popper over and over and I told him to play the game right and quit cheating. My mom accused me of being critical and I told her I was just telling the truth and he was popping it over and over until he got a one and my mom said it was a misunderstanding. I told her she was the one who said to him he was cheating.
Also during the game we were playing and my mom changed the rules to you don’t need to get out on a six because it would be too hard for the youngsters to play. But my mom also said you can’t send a person home if they are on your start space so you’re trapped and it’s in the rules. I figured it was only for that version. But after I won the game I read the rules and didn’t see that rule anywhere so my brother read it and said it didn’t say that either and the rule explicitly stated even if it’s on your start for bumping home an opponent. My mom said we were playing by my rules so I told her she said that not me and she is the one who made it up not me.
On Thanksgiving my mom and my brother were talking and he then says how he can’t afford to feed his kids if he had more and he doesn’t get foodstamps. I jump in saying he can apply for them and then he starts explaining why he can’t and he mentions his ex claimed their kids so she gets foodstamps and is unemployed. I start asking questions to try and understand and then my mom gets mad at me because she raises her voice. She also yelled at me to stop asking questions and to not ask any and she said this is not to talk about in front of the kids. His kids were here and in the room. I mentioned my brother brought it up but she said I brought it up and the custody stuff. I told her it was my brother who brought it up when he started talking about foodstamps and explaining why he couldn’t get any and my dad cut us off before our argument escalated before I could even say when my brother brought it up.
And there was another time when I was doing flashcards with my son so he can recognize numbers and any numbers he already knew I put in a pile and the rest he didn’t know I kept in my hand and my mom claimed I was telling him the numbers and I told her I was not and she claimed he didn’t know the other numbers either. I told him he does because I asked him what the numbers were and he said them an she said I kept say no and telling him the answer and said she was there when I was doing it and she heard it. I know I didn’t do that.
There are other times she has done this lately but I can’t think of any others right now but it’s starting to scare me. I wonder if something is going wrong with her brain like is she at the early stages of dementia or Alzheimer’s where she is starting to get confused but yet she can still function fine and live normal and still drive and do her work. If I think of this as her starting to get old her brain aging so her memory isn’t as good, I won’t take it personal.