Saturday, December 17th, 2016
There have always been hints in my childhood that Santa wasn’t real and I didn’t pick up on those hints. They were:
My parents used the same wrapping paper Santa had for our presents
I have found Christmas presents in the attic
I have found presents in our house and then got them from Santa
I want a Little Mermaid Aquarium and instead my best friend Stephanie got it, same thing happened to my brother, he wanted a Sonic doll but his best friend got it instead
I saw my grandfather and my dad making my dollhouse and I got it from Santa when in fact they made it in the garage and my parents brought it back from Montana on top of their mini van
Santa never got us everything we wanted for Christmas
My bullies still got presents
There were Santas at every mall
And I never figured out Santa wasn’t real until in 3rd grade when my best friend Ashia told me he wasn’t real and our parents were the Santas. I felt happy because that explained the mistakes he has made and why we never got everything for Christmas and why he used the same wrapping paper as my parents and why I would get toys from him that were already in my house my parents had away. That also explained why he had magic to go around the country and deliver the presents and why he could be at every mall at once and why each country had their own version of Santa. I also read online that parents will intentionally leave hints for their kids to figure out but mine always made excuses for the hints we saw like Santa needs help so they store the presents for him, Santa is too busy to wrap every present and so are the elves so they need their help too, Santa can’t give you everything you want or he will run out of toys and the other kids wouldn’t get any, Santa did make a mistake giving your friend that present you wanted or he felt your friend deserved it more because he only had one. And my reason for why my parents made the doll house and brought it out to our home is because it would be too big to fit it down the chimney so my parents had to bring it out for him. That was my 6 year old logic there.
But sadly after I figured it out, I got less presents every year so I thought that was because I didn’t believe in him so I was being punished. But it was just a coincidence because the Sears Outlet store had shut down so my mom wasn’t able to find presents at a very good price anymore and that was where she got most of our Santa presents. Plus my mom has said we never got that many presents but it seemed like a lot because I was little so it looked like a lot to me. I did get a lot of presents in 1995 but most of them were from my relatives and my parents, very few were from Santa so I thought at age ten that was my punishment for not believing in him even though my brothers got a little as I did but I thought they were being punished too because of me. So I tried to believe in him again and we didn’t get lot of presents again.
Saturday, December 26th, 2015
For Christmas my mom got me a Dr. Phil book. It’s about life like how to spot the bad people and why they do things. It’s called Life Code. My mom got me that book because I love the show and watch it all the time and I am always reading stuff online and have a hard time figuring out what to believe. So she got me a book that is written by a professional so I will figure out what things to not listen to online.
I remember we were just talking and I said how I wished I knew the red flags when I was dating but they don’t teach it in high school and I think everyone should learn red flags before they start dating. My mom told me they didn’t have that then and internet dating was new then. I told her people were dating before the internet and they had dating ads so red flags must have been known already and weren’t they in books or in brochures and my mom said no because you learn from personal experience and learn things in life when you go through things.
Now with the internet now, you can pretty much read about anything now, narcissism is one of them and learning about abuse and what it is and now everyone can learn the red flags. But unfortunately even narcissists and abusers have access to that information to so they can just modify their behavior so they won’t fit the list and that is scary.
But I am still surprised none of the red flags stuff was ever taught and not known over the years because surely professionals would have written about it and I am sure women would have written memoirs about being in a abusive relationship and they have also been in therapy and I am sure a therapist would have written a book about it to help other women so they can spot an abuser before it starts.
I just had to learn all this too late but my mom said it’s something I can teach my children now and I said if I had known these red flags when dating, I wouldn’t have been with my husband because I would have thought he was a future abuser because of the red flags he was showing which were false red flags I call it.
My mom tried to see the positive perk in me meeting Jerry, it got me to move out here and I met my husband that way but I told her I still ask myself if I didn’t date him, would I have still moved out here, my aunt and uncle lived here so I could have just moved here and lived with them right away but would I have still met my husband without him. Sometimes bad mistakes can turn out positive.
Friday, December 18th, 2015
(Humor in the title)
For over ten years now I have kept hearing how Happy Holidays is political correctness because it’s so offensive to say Merry Christmas and I do hate change so I also hated this greeting because I thought it replaced Merry Christmas and I see this is a human thing because even normies don’t like this change. We all want things to stay the same. But my mom said this greeting was around when she was a kid and there is even an old song called Happy Holidays. It was originally sang by Bing Crosby in 1942. So there you have it folks, this PCness has been around since 1942.
I think Happy Holidays is a lazy way of wishing all the holidays that happened this time of year. After all it gets tiring to say “Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Kwanzaa.”
Here is your PC holiday song:
Tuesday, December 1st, 2015
This is the whole album here.
It was released in 1997 and was banned in the year 2000 after a lawsuit by music companies because Matt Rogers had turned this into dirty lyrics than a parody. All the remaining copies were destroyed and are out of print so you will never find this in stores nor find them used anywhere unless you look on ebay or here http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/matt-rogers-rated-xmas-matt-rogers/325612 but it is pricey so you are better off listening to it here on youtube. But you can still find the songs online through sharing but I dunno if that is still happening. They closed Kazaa due to lawsuits and Limewire. I have not done any music sharing in six years so I don’t know if there is still music sharing. But I had heard most of these songs when I was 16-18 years old when I downloaded them because I was looking for song parodies. But I hadn’t realized then it was all about sex. I was pretty disgusted when I realized and now I sometimes listen to these songs for laughs.