Tuesday, January 24th, 2017
So I am in another group about being raised by narcissists and I have realized my mom has some of the tenancies and so did her parents and her oldest sister has them too. Wow, there was even narcissism in my family and my mom had FLEAS. But I turned out fine.
So someone made a thread on there talking about when she was six and how her mother would take her shopping and just leave her in the department store. She would wait for a real long time and being this mature six year old, she would go to a store employee and report her mother missing so they would call her over the intercom and it would turn out her mother wasn’t in the store and she was elsewhere so she would come back and get her. This happened three times and after the third time, this time they didn’t give her back to her so they took the mother to the back and never again did her mother leave her in the store again. She swore her mother was trying to abandon her and was trying to have her get kidnapped.
I wrote how you have a higher chance of winning the lottery than having your kid getting taken by a random stranger so if some parent thinks they can just do that, a random stranger is more likely going to try and help the child find their parents and report them to a employee or call the police to try and find the parents and then the parents would be arrested for child abandonment. Someone responds asking me if this is a chance a normal parent would take and never mind the kidnapping, an unsupervised 6 year old can get into mischief and this was a department store. I told that person my point was it’s very very difficult to have your kid get taken by a random stranger and you have a higher chance of winning the lottery than intentionally losing your child to a random stranger. That person responds back just today and asks So, leaving your child unattended in a department store is responsible parenting because the chances are very small that the child will be kidnapped/murdered? I told her I never said that, I said it’s very very difficult to have your child get kidnapped by a random stranger and you have a higher chance of winning the lottery so if the OP’s parent thought she could just lose her and have her get kidnapped, she was very mistaken.
I always hate these kind of conversations and if she responds again twisting my words, I am done with her. I do not deal with idiots and she could just be trolling me. I will update this post if she replies again with a idiotic response.
Friday, January 20th, 2017
Someone asked on a forum why some people feel free to tell her their first name and others don’t feel comfortable. She also mentioned some she has been talking to for a while she still doesn’t know their first name and doesn’t understand the secretive behind it and it’s not like the first name will give out their location or where they live.
I replied in it saying when you put your first name online and information like your personal experience and your problems, someone online can still pick you out and know who you are because they happened to know you in real life like from school or from work or they could be your ex. I would call it a coincidence because what are the odds of someone lurking on the same forum you go to you know in real life? Even if you don’t use your first name, you can still be picked out who you are just by what you write about yourself but if that happens the chances are they knew you in real life.
I forgot to mention on the forum that if it’s about something online and you were talking about a incident or your personal experience online, someone online can still pick you out even if they don’t know your name or where you live because they knew you from another forum so they only know you by the username they originally knew you as. I have kept recognizing a same user online I knew from a forum on other websites no matter what name she uses. Why? Because she is always talking about fat acceptance and talking about when she posted on a racist forum because they understood her and understood her hyperacusis about loud kids and she also keeps talking about how parents should keep their kids quiet and only take them to Chuckie Cheese. Even the childfree people have hated her and banned her from their forum and she gets banned from about every forum online she goes to. She once had a fit when a parent wrote how she had to do cut backs because she lost her job so she had to cut out luxuries so she cut the internet and this person called it child abuse because she was denying her children internet by canceling it just to save on bills and to get by in life until she got another job. Plus she has used the same username for other forums and then she started to use different names but it’s still easy to pick out who she is because she doesn’t shut up about fat acceptance and how kids should only be at Chuckie Cheese and she talks about when she posted on a racist forum. I told her if she will leave her past behind and quit talking about it fat acceptance, people won’t know who she is. That is how people always figure out who she is. But unfortunately she made a very bad mistake and has to pay for it for the rest of her life on the internet because her past will always follow her. Never join a racist forum and pretend to be racist and the fact she used her username she had used on other forums which was the worst mistake she could ever make. Even though that forum is gone now, people still know about it thanks to her past.
Thursday, December 29th, 2016
Often times we will see articles about how bad borderlines are and what the red flags are and what makes them toxic people. I see the same written about NPD and psychoapaths and yes those are mental illnesses to rather people want to believe it or not.
I see the same with Asperger’s. I will see hate sites out there warning other people about being in a relationship with them and how harmful they are and how abusive they are.
Now what do I think of these sites, I believe these were created by women who were deeply hurt by their ex who happened to have it or believed they did. I see the same about borderlines too and NPDs and psychopaths and personality disorders. Some do armchair diagnose. I armchair diagnosed mine with covert narcissism but it turned out she was BPD if she was telling the truth but I still feel she acted very narcissist and a covert one. Talk about overlap and some victims do believe covert narcissism and BPD are the same.
People will express their hurt differently. Some will just suffer in silent and only talk about things their ex did while some others will be hateful about their ex and make fun of them and their problems and make hate posts about them and hate pages on them while some do the extreme and make hates pages on their disorder telling everyone how bad people are with it and warning everyone to stay away from them. There is even a hate group on autism on the Delphi forums. It’s mostly women in it and not all of them are bad and hateful but those ones always stand out and they will make fun of their ex’s and hate on autism. Even the group owner is very hostile towards anyone who is on the spectrum ad will boot and silence anyone if she thinks you’re on it and she will even ban people if she thinks they’re aspies. She has gotten very paranoid and thinks a user from Wrongplanet is trolling there and making different accounts posing as an NT so she bans that user. I remember the time another NT was banned from that group because she was posting on Wrongplanet so the owner assumed she was an ASD but she took it well.
How did I handle my hurt on my ex’s. Well with Jayden I made fun of him behind his back so I even wrote a story about him making fun of my situation and in the story the girlfriend would get tired of him being lazy and not wanting to work so she decides to make him wear diapers so she gives him a choice, either he moves out or wear diapers and he complains how “retarded” that all is but because he doesn’t want to move back home, he goes with diapers. My husband would tease me about him from time to time saying “No wonder you wanted to put him in diapers, he was an adult baby.” When I watched an episode of South Park where the boys got addicted to a computer game and there was someone in the game who was cheating so the boys had to kill a bunch of animals to gain experience points to level up to kill off the character so he would stop killing other characters who didn’t have high experience points because he had so many. The user was fat and messy and lazy so I said to my mother they had made a whole show on Jayden and my mom laughed and said my little brother said that exact same thing and said this is something I should watch because it’s about my ex.
Then there was Jerry. I also talked about her for a while until my parents said they were sick of hearing about her and she was out of my life now so move the fuck on so I would talk to my husband about it and he listened and supported me. I also went on a posting rampage on Wrongplanet about her talking about the stuff she has said t me about me and other things and about how I was treated. I knew she lurked there but I just didn’t care. I wanted her to see my pain and suffering and after finding out about narcissism, I regretted what I did because it meant she probably enjoyed the pain she gave me and had a good laugh at my suffering because I gave her the attention she wanted.
While I did those things, some will go out of their way and create websites or hate groups on a condition while some will make a blog about their ex and post their real name and I hear someone did actually do that on here and then within a week, her blog was gone and hadn’t been back up since. I did see someone who did that (I wonder if that was the same person) and her intent was to destroy him and to warn any other women who are dating him and when they Google his name they will find her blog and find other news articles about him the bad stuff he has done and the man will suffer forever and be ruined.
Then if course I have heard about women wanting to get revenge on their ex’s after being hurt by them. Reason why I am saying women is because the stories are mostly by them than by guys.
Every hurt person handles it differently.
Sunday, October 9th, 2016
Yes this is till on my mind and I still have stuff on my mind about it.
I feel people want to silence me so they are saying I am doing gossip and not confronting them about it.
They don’t want to hear I was harassed by other aspies and bullied by others with it and judged by others with it.
They don’t want to hear I was put down for my aspie traits and bullied for it.
They don’t want to hear I have gotten the same treatment and misunderstandings from other aspies I have gotten from NTs.
They don’t want to hear any examples of what has happened to me when I want to get my point across.
They want to limit my communication. My feelings. They want me to be silent and not have me talk about my personal experience and what I have gone through.
How do you talk without mentioning anyone subtly even if you are not thinking of a specific user online or not thinking of anyone on a forum you’re posting on? How do you talk without the stuff you have read online and learned from personal experience rather it was online or in real life or people you know who have had that experience?
How do I talk about my personal experience without insulting anyone?
How do you express your hurt and frustration and comfort without being seen as being sly or taking a dig at anyone?
How do other people communicate without doing all this?
Do I need to make very vague posts now?
Apparently it’s also offensive to try and figure out what part of me is the OCD, the anxiety, the Asperger’s and what is the burnout and what is the depression or anxiety and trying to figure this all out for myself so I know what I am experiencing and going through.
I’m a mess.
Friday, November 13th, 2015
Today I had caught myself making a response to the wrong post but I had caught it after I had posted it so I had to go and find the right post and quote it and retype what I said and go back to my post and delete the first response and quote. I started to consider if I could make this mistake, then that means others have probably made it too so from now on if I get a response to any of my posts that make no sense, I will assume they had replied to the wrong post and they had meant to reply to someone else’s. Not that they are illiterate or trying to mess with me.