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Never go to Goodwill

Saturday, October 14th, 2017

This year I decided to save on Halloween costumes by not going to Spirit Halloween and spending 50 bucks on a kid’s costume or even going on Amazon and spending that much so I went to Goodwill. I had my daughter pick out a costume and it was a Frozen costume and my son already had a costume he picked out few a month back and we bought him the hat for it at Spirit Halloween which was only 15 bucks.

I went to Goodwill today with my kids and ended up buying other things because it’s so hard to resist not looking at other stuff and buying it. I got Wii Fit Plus for ten bucks and I got a unopened building set of Shopkins and found a Barbie set never been opened, and found a Disney Princess Leappad 2 and got it for my daughter and it included the carry case for it, I also found shoes in my size with rollers on it and a dumbell I needed for work outs so I wouldn’t have to go to the gym for it anymore and I got spider webs and it was two for 99 cents. I also got a Halloween decoration for two bucks and three Ty Beanies. I ended up spending 75 bucks. I also got a leapad game too and I am not sure what happened with it but it was only two bucks and it’s probably still in the bag.

Never go to Goodwill if you don’t want to spend more money than you are there for. And the good thing about it is when they have unopened items because stores sometimes get over inventory and they donate the rest of it to Goodwills here, and you also sometimes find vintage things or old unopened items and when buying used items, you’ve got to be careful. I saw a Wii remote with corroded batteries in it and I won’t buy any electronic devices that has corrosion in it. I also check board games for missing pieces if I am intending on buying it.  I also open games or DVD cases to check for scratches and missing discs or game cartridges. I love Goodwill because I can look for things I need and save money but I always end up buying more than I intended because of what I can find there. It takes will power. But I do not like the outlet stores.

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The narcissistic psycho bitch

Saturday, October 7th, 2017

I have always liked Gale Weathers. So pretty and I just liked her. People also had a hostile attitude towards her when she would try and do her job and then she quits her job as a journalist and I would too if I kept pissing people off with it.  But I rewatched the movies again as an adult and I had a realization. She is not some innocent news reporter as I thought. She was all for fame, she didn’t care about anyone but herself, she had an agenda. People were not hostile with her just because, they could see right through her and knew she had an agenda. That is what made her a bitch, that is why they were reacting negative towards her, that is why Sydney had assaulted her twice. I realized she was a narcissist. She was so self absorbed and she wanted to be admired and only did things to get fame. She did not save Sydney because she cared and wanted to help, she did it for her fame so she can write a book about it and be a hero and be admired. She sees niceness as weakness so she puts on this bitch persona. But Dewey could see right through it and knew she was not this cold hearted lady and incapable of empathy. He saw her as a lonely lost girl. That sounded condescending when he told that to Jennifer Jolie. I see that meaning as Dewey sees her as a child and has emotions of one and she does what she does to get the attention she needs just cause she is lonely and all she needs is someone to notice her and like her for who she is. Jennifer Jolie saw her as a narcissistic psycho bitch and of course Dewey defends her by saying he doesn’t think she is that and thinks she has a good heart and she is a lonely lost girl and sees niceness as weakness and doesn’t want anyone to see that in her. I even wonder if Gale had some fucked up childhood it made her the way she is and someone did do a Fanfiction about it where they had her tell Dewey about her childhood and it was horrible. Was an accident so she was unwanted, got raped and it was blamed on her by her own mother, and was always treated horribly by her family and then she goes off to New York and goes to school for journalism and decides no one will ever see the true her and she will get fame and be admired. Of course in the movie Gale has let her guard down and actually show empathy when Dewey would give her attention for her as a person, not because of her fame and what she does in her career, and when she would want to solve the ghostface murder and she wasn’t doing that for fame. I do not think she has NPD and her character has evolved throughout the franchise and in the fourth movie, she has moved onto fictional writing no longer writing about the ghostface killings or the Woodsboro murders. But this is only Hollywood where you can actually cure someone by giving them what they need and bam they stop being this bad person. That is why I say she didn’t have NPD.

Also the reason why Sydney was so hostile towards Gale and wouldn’t talk to her was because she wrote about her mother in her book and made up stuff based on her theories and made money off of it than sticking to the facts. Sure other journalists and investigators have written about murders but they stick to the facts and respect the victims families and change their names and facts for privacy and I doubt they all do it for money and they only do it because they know people will be curious and want to read about it. Gale only did it for fame and to make money and she made up stuff in her book and didn’t respect the victim’s family. Sydney could see right through it and now I understand why she assaulted her when she told her “I will send you a copy.”

 

Courteney Cox as Gale Weathers. Even she thinks her own character was a bitch and very manipulative and she had to work very hard to get the part. I can’t believe she was my age when she acted in the first movie.

Finally

Saturday, September 16th, 2017

I emailed the city and they got back to me a day later saying the area I reported was in another town so they gave me a number to call. Here everything is conjoined so it’s hard to tell when you enter a new city and where the city boundary line is. It took me about a week to call them because I hate making phone calls. But it turned out well and they are going to take care of those branches that block the traffic light from the driver’s sight.

Also yesterday  I was on my way to the gym when I accidentally took the usual route I always took to get there I have been avoiding. I had been avoiding going that way because of the school zone. But I realized I was going that way so I remembered there was a school zone there so when I see the 20 speed limit sigh, I noticed the words “when flashing” and there were two orange lights above it not turned on. I was so happy they had finally changed it. It used to be Speed 20 school days 7AM-5PM and it would be very confusing. Okay I see cars there so does that mean they are having school? My son doesn’t have school today so do I still need to go 20 and are they having school? When does their school start again? This is what I mean by how confusing this all was until they changed it to lights and now you only go 20 MPH when the lights are flashing. That makes it a lot easier and not so confusing. Plus that takes care of autopilot so no more forgetting to slow down and worrying about forgetting to slow down. That was why I was avoiding go by that school because of speed 20 school days 7AM-5PM sign. I wonder if someone also reported it and they changed it to only when flashing. Now I can go through that area without anymore worries.

I can now see why my mother hated this show

Sunday, September 3rd, 2017

 

 

When I was 11, my mom tried to get me to stop watching Rocko’s Modern Life and all those years I just thought it was because she didn’t like the show. Just recently I discovered it on TV again and it’s on Nick Splat so I like to record them to watch later. The first episode I had watched when I started seeing it again was where Rocko wakes up one morning and finds his dog Spunky missing. So he is looking for him and then he hears some squeaky sound in the kitchen pantry so he opens the door and there he is with his mop and a white puddle on the floor. I knew what the white stuff was and I knew what he was doing with the mop. But my kids didn’t pick up on it and I wouldn’t tell them. I totally understood now why my mother hated this show. It had adult content in it and this was something kids would not pick up on. They would just think he likes the mop and uses it as a comfort object and his owner is trying to take it away from him like how a parent tries to take the comfort object away from the child. Still I don’t understand the fuss my mother made about the show, did she think us kids would pick up on this stuff?

We watched the whole episode and it had adult content in the whole thing and I knew the mop was more than a comfort object and the pet psychologist was having sex with it and fell in love with it too and took it out on a date while Spunky finds a female dog and falls in love but at the end of the episode it turns out it wasn’t the female dog he was staring at, it was the fire hydrant. I was surprised they would put that on a kid’s show but that also tells me they did that to also entertain adult audience because they figured parents would be watching it with their kids so they will mind as well entertain them too. But I have not noticed any other adult content in any other episodes other than seeing a clip on Nick Spat facebook page about the show and it was where Rocko’s car calls him from the car yard where it got impounded too saying she needed him to come and bail her out now and there was another car saying something to her. The words for the video was how many of us missed this as a kid and I was still confused what I was missing so I read the comments and learned Rocko’s car was about to be raped by the other car and they were making a jail reference because inmates rape other inmates in the cell.

 

But yeah kids do not notice these things and I still don’t understand what parents worry about so they feel the need to ban shows in their home.

Boy how scary

Sunday, September 3rd, 2017

I was driving home from Goodwill after returning something and getting other things in exchange when I get to the stoplight except I couldn’t see it because the trees were blocking it. The reason why I knew the stoplights were there is because I go by there all the time and I saw the red arrow light for the left only turn lane. But it made me concerned about another person, someone else could be driving through there and not know the section well so they might not know there is a stoplight there and by the time they see the light finally, they might not have a quick enough reaction to stop and they would have to slam on their breaks to not go through the red light and that can also cause a collision too if the driver behind them also didn’t know there was a red light. That also made me think someone coming from anything ave could get hit by someone running the red light because they didn’t see it in the right lane they were driving in. Plus even if you know the area well, you don’t even now if the light is red or green if you are in the right lane and you have to look at the arrow to determine what color the light is.

So I contacted the city by emailing them because I couldn’t figure out what number to call. I couldn’t find a number about stoplights or signs being invisible from the road. Also i am not even sure what town this was in because where I live has a bunch of cities in one area and they all conjoin so it’s hard to tell when you have entered another city and where the city boundaries are.  Like do my kids see their doctor in another town or in the city we live in now? I have no idea what town their hospital is in in what city boundary.

But that section sure concerned me. Someone might not be paying attention so they don’t see the arrow light from the right lane or they might not have a quick enough reaction to slam on their breaks and that can also cause them to be rear ended. If I am coming from any Ave, I will mind as well treat that area as a stop sign in case someone comes zooming through the light because they didn’t see it due to the trees.

So glad to have my own room again

Tuesday, August 29th, 2017

It’s like I got my old room back. I remember when my mom moved my husband to the basement and have it meant to be a family area too for our kids and she moved me into my husband’s old bedroom and they moved into my old room from the basement. I realized the bedroom was bigger than the room down in the basement because they could fit all their clothes in there and their stuff than having half of it in the laundry room.  Then when my son turned five, I got moved to the basement and my son got his own room. He moved into my new old bedroom. that was once my husband’s. But for the past year I had been sleeping on the couch in the living room because my husband snores and it was like I didn’t have a bedroom. I got used to not having one because I didn’t need one. I only needed a place to sleep. All my clothes were in the laundry room and my stuff was in the basement too and some of it was in the living room. My mom felt so bad I had to be on the couch but I told her I didn’t get kicked out of my room, my husband just snores. So now I am back in my room and my parents are still moving out of there. All my clothes are up there and my dresser and the TV and my Amiibos and ROB and I have my WiiU in there and the game chair and my Wii and WiiU games and the Wii Fit board and the yoga mat and the Wii controllers and accessories and my Shopkins and keychains. but I won’t get both closets back because my parents will be using one of them for their clothes because they have so many they can’t fit them all out there in their dresser and RV and storage bins. Plus I think they will leave their chest in there and they left their big bed in there. They also left two of their dressers in there so I was able to fit my clothes in there and blankets but I had to put my jeans on the floor in my closet and some shirts because my mom still has her clothes in the bottom drawer and she doesn’t want me touching it. She is someone who likes her things to stay where she has them and not have them moved to another spot for her to go through while my Dad doesn’t mind tossing things into boxes just to get them out of there and go through later. I am the same way. I also got rid of some of my clothes too while moving them all upstairs. I also have too many of them but my mom has more than me. I also got rid of my nursing bras because they got too big for me. I mostly wear sport bras now and I have C cup bras. Nursing shrunk my boobs. Now they are deflated and saggy and when I lay on my back, I look flat chested and they feel like skin when I touch them and squeeze them.

My husband is thinking of moving his computer upstairs to the living room and I told him he better not bring his mess up here. We could move the computer desk up here too and the basement could be his bedroom now and a game room for the old games but I might move the little TV up to my room and maybe one of the IKEA shelves. I am still moving in my new bedroom.

 

Solar Eclipse

Monday, August 21st, 2017

Today was the day it happened. I got up early and woke my dad up and my daughter and we all left after eight to drive a little south to see the full eclipse. My husband had the app on his phone he bought for two dollars telling him what zone will be the full eclipse and once we reached that zone, we saw a bunch of cars on the side of the road and we all pulled over and it had already started. It took us less than an hour to get there.

I looked at it through my solar glasses while my kids sat in the trunk and my dad had the cooler out and my husband and my dad stood outside while I sat in the car and waited and I would look at the solar eclipse off and on and the outside got darker and darker and then the moon covered the sun and it was very dark, different than when clouds cover it, and people clapped and cheered and it lasted a few seconds before it started to shine again. Then everyone started to leave and we left too. We tried to get a picture of it but it was too bright. This was the first time I had ever seen a solar eclipse and I hope my kids will remember this too. I hear the next one in the US will be down in Texas so I couldn’t miss this one and thanks to this day, there wasn’t much trash at work or compost or recycling so I figured most people stayed home for the event. So I left work a half hour early because I was done and saw no reason to stay until my shift was over if less people came to work and didn’t make a big mess in the building.

Is this what women complain about?

Saturday, August 5th, 2017

Ever since I started to go jogging, I decided to wear a sports bra and no shirt and wear work out shorts. I do it to keep cool. But I have noticed some attention like one guy honking at me and then turning back onto the road and then into a parking lot and pulling over and speaking to me in Spanish. Then he drove off fast when I told him I didn’t speak any Spanish. Some guys will honk at me as they drive by or even shout out the window. This doesn’t happen all the time and it only happens sometimes when I work out and it’s really easy to ignore. Is this what women complain about when they show their bodies? Some attention that is so easy to ignore? It’s not like men are following me and calling me names or picking on me. I told my husband about it and he said “You want to get raped?” I said no and I am going to see how much attention I can get and he goes “be careful, I don’t want you to get raped.” I then asked him if that is what women complain about with that little attention and they act like they get it on a daily basis from every person. My husband told me I don’t feel the same way about it as women do and to talk to my mother about it because maybe she will explain it better. I wonder if fat women get attention too or is it only pretty women and thin women? I wonder if skinny fat women also get attention. If so, then that means nothing for my body. I always figure it’s just men being immature so I ignore it.

I decided to move on

Tuesday, August 1st, 2017

I know I would say I would try all week before moving on but since he doesn’t respond to my texts, I decided to just move on so I didn’t call him this morning to tell him I am going for a walk again. I don’t know why he asked for my number and why he said he wanted to run with me but I find it weird he wouldn’t know who I am when I got a hold of him twice and he didn’t fit any of the symptoms for “signs someone likes you more than a friend” (I looked it up) so this was all very strange. He even called me at 5 in the morning yesterday and i didn’t even pick up because I was still sleeping and the phone call woke me up and I didn’t want to talk so I let it ring. I figured it could be him because no one calls this early in the morning unless you have a wake up call requested or if your friends know you are up that early and I told him I get up between seven and eight. But I texted him after I called him that morning and I never got a response. Oh well.

My thin privileges

Sunday, July 30th, 2017

I keep hearing about thin privileges in the fat community. I realize I take lot of things for granted because I don’t have to go through what fat people go through or even worry about stuff they need to worry about. I have realized what my thin privileges were and they are:

I don’t need to lose 60 lbs or I would be malnourished and in the hospital

When I worked out at the gym and was using the weight machine, the seat was so wide I could set my phone and water bottle right next to me on the chair

I can have my kids sit right next to me on the chair in our house because I am thin enough to fit one of them there

I don’t need to lose weight so quickly when I work out and my weight is dropping because I am not overweight or obese so I can still eat back my calories

I will find my size in clothes in most clothing stores

When I was pregnant, most of my shorts still fit me and my pants so I didn’t need maternity clothes, I only had maternity pants but most of them were big on me and I needed a size small so i went for the smallest size or else the bigger sizes would keep falling down on me and I hate loose pants around my bottom and in my crotch area. I don’t like the feeling of pants falling down and hanging. I do like to wear clothes that are bigger sizes so they feel right on me

I can eat unhealthy in front of people or go to a McDonalds and eat a large meal and not get judged or even worry about it (I don’t order large meals)

I can wear cute clothes

 

 

But then are downsides to being thin:

“Are you on a diet?” when you refuse cake or sweets or ask for a small piece

“You’re not fat” for the same reason above

People assuming you have an eating disorder just because you are eating healthy or not snacking all day or because you refuse sweets or ask for a small piece or because you are having smaller portions

You are working out and people assume you must be anorexic and you are obsessed with exercising

People assuming you don’t eat

People making comments on how much you eat because it’s not a big enough portion to them or because you have ordered a size small. Maybe you just have a small stomach and get full so you don’t want to waste food and money. I am not going to order a large Dairy Queen blizzard because it has all that sugar and 800 calories for a size large? Plus it will be too much ice cream for me and I don’t need all that sugar so I get a small.

Yes my parents make these sort of comments to me and they did today. Comments on my body and saying I am getting too thin and starting to look anorexic and saying I need to eat more food and I told them I eat three meals a day. Plus my weight has not gone down that much. Even my husband is worried about me and thinks I have burned body fat but gained muscle so that is why it seems like I have not lost that much weight.