“That’s cheating.”

Monday, May 1st, 2017

That is what my six year old son said when I told him I used the walkthrough to find all the chests and Korok seeds in Breath of the Wild.  But how is him asking me for help in the game any different than consulting a walkthrough? You’re still getting your answers but because we have internet now, we have no use asking someone for help in the game if you can look it up. I spent most of my time in the game treasure hunting and looting chests and getting Korok seeds to build up my inventory until I maxed them out and I did Shrines to get spirit orbs so I could trade them in to get heart containers and stamina until I maxed that out. I just wanted to be prepared for the final battle and I got over my fear of Guardians and they’re easy now to deal with because I am equipped now. I have good shields and stronger weapons and the master sword and I parry to defeat them. I can’t do that with wooden shield but I can with medal ones that are strong and ancient shields.


I know it’s possible to beat Ganon in the castle with three hearts and no armor and no good weapons because there have been videos about it from players doing it but they are so good at playing they can do it without needing any armor and other gear when going to the castle because they get it all there and defeat Ganon without any armor and they do that in a speedrun and plus some people online have said they “accidentally” beat the game when they were exploring the castle and they ended up in the battle room so instead of resetting the game, they decide to beat Ganon and then they are out in the field and then they defeat him again as the beast and bam game ends. My son wants me to get him to the castle but I tell him I can’t do that because he isn’t equipped to go there and he will die from all those guardians and enemies and he doesn’t have the Master Sword and he only has four heats. He isn’t good enough either to do the castle with very little hearts and lack of armor and lack of meals. if I can’t do it, neither could he because he isn’t good at gaming either. But those people who “accidentally” beat the game without doing any four of the dungeons must be good at playing too or they would have died in the castle with very little hearts and armor and items and no Master Sword and strong weapons because the enemies would be too strong and there are a bunch of guardians. I see the game has made this for all levels like for beginners and intermediates and experts players. The experts can do the castle first and beat Ganon so they are able to do the speedrun. Some even manage to explore the castle first before playing the rest of the game and I wonder how they even survive the place so they must be expert players too. I would have been dead from all those beams and enemies with their strong weapons and having lot of health and my weapons would have been too frenzy to defeat them and they would all break before they’re dead. But I am sure some do it later in the game when they have more hearts and stronger weapons and more items and meals and better armor. I waited until I maxed out my weapon and bow and shield stash and max out my meals to do it and I had 24 hearts and had Ancient Armor that was Guardian Resistant but I was missing the head piece so I had the bottoms and the middle but not the top. I waited before I felt equipped to do it. I always like to be prepared for everything because I don’t know how hard it’s going to be.

I wish I could get my son to understand this about why I won’t help him with the castle and why he isn’t equipped for it. I tell him I am not good at it to do it like some people are because I will just die in the castle and so will he. I will even die before I even get there because of so many guardians. I wonder if Nintendo did that on purpose and it was meant to keep players away until they have more armor and weapons and more hearts and stamina but some have managed to get though there with three hearts and no armor and very little weapons. But you can get in the castle through the back by using cryonis to get across the moat to the underground of the castle where the docks are and some have managed to go up the pillars but it’s very difficult to do that because you can’t climb them. But then there are a bunch of skywatchers and guardians at the castle on the outside.

Nintendo Switch

Sunday, April 16th, 2017

My husband decided to get me one for my birthday but it turned out to be a scam because it said it came but it said it was delivered in another state so I had Amazon call us and my husband talked to them and they sent the seller an email and said they would refund us if he didn’t respond in two days. I was then disappointed because my husband had also gotten me a Zelda game and I wouldn’t be able to use it. My husband was so sorry I wouldn’t be getting the system so the following day I was on Reddit and then I see a post saying Nintendo Switch $299.99 Prime only. I click on it and go to the website and they are in stock for preorder so without thinking I preordered it knowing it will be gone quickly if I didn’t act now. I ignored my husband telling me he wanted to get our money back first before buying one. We did get our money back two days later and it cost us $229.00 this time because we saved $70 dollars because we were Prime members. The Switch did come quickly when they came in their warehouse and they shipped it out the same day it came and we got it a day earlier than I expected. So we saved money when we got another Switch because the last one was over $400 dollars and I thought he had bought it from a scalper and my husband didn’t know Amazon had 3rd party sellers. But sadly there are Nintendo Switch scams going around and Amazon is a prime target for it so beware when buying a Switch from sellers. Only buy from Amazon and make sure it’s them selling it, not a 3rd party seller. Also do not buy one that is below retail price. Just be patient and keep an eye out for a Switch.

So the system came and my husband had opened it and set it up for me and I created a profile and started my Zelda game. It’s very different than the other Zelda games because it’s open world and you can do anything in the game and there is no order. Also weapons break so you keep on collecting them and enemies stay dead until the blood moon rises. Instead of collecting heart pieces, you get rupees instead or other items and you only get heart containers from completing shrines to get spirit orbs and you go to a statue to pray and you can trade four orbs for a stamina vessel or a heart container. Also they made the game more realistic. Link uses energy when he climbs or swims, weapons break, Link freezes to death or burns to death, he can’t swim in cold water or it’s death, when he gets hit, he falls down and it takes a while for him to get up.

There are some annoying enemies in the game because they are hard to beat or impossible for me to beat and it makes me waste weapons so I try to dodge them. I will go around them and if I don’t feel like fighting enemies, I will try and kill them cowardly by tossing bombs at them from above and I keep on doing it and watching them fly around and I sometimes will shoot arrows at them and they die instantly. i have killed a few Wizzrobes that way too. They get confused and just stand still for a few seconds so that gives me a chance to shoot an arrow at them. I do it from far away where they can’t see me and they are confused about where the arrows are coming from. I have also found ways to get on towers avoiding flying guardians and I have managed to climb Central Tower avoiding getting hit by a guardian. it took me like 20 minutes to get to the top. I just had to be patient and I had enough stamina to jump as I climbed up the tower and they get to another platform to rest and the guardians could no longer reach me or see me. Then I would climb more and they would aim at me again and I would be rushing to another platform. Then after the last platform they no longer aimed at me so I guess Nintendo decides to give the players a break after making it that far up. But once I start gliding from the tower, they aim at me again. And I would save every time I would make it to a new platform so that way if I died, I could load from that point. the game allows you to save any time and there are places where you aren’t allowed to save and start from where you exactly left off because you then find you have to start from the beginning despite saving and there are some places where you can’t save at all.

I told my husband about dodging enemies in the game and avoiding them and going around and also killing some of them cowardly and he laughed and said that is what Nintendo intended for me to do. It’s a strategy game so it makes you think and find a way to get to places. I spent most of my time climbing mountains and being a climber and gliding than taking pathways because they are mostly filled with enemies and that was how I reached towers that way too.

Now that I have done most of the Shrines and now I am at a point where you need to do Shrine challenges to unlock them and also I did all the dungeons so now I have the castle to do and I have collected over 100 Korok seeds and now I have lost interest in the game so I am not playing it much anymore. Just those guardians freak me out and there are too many of them in Hyrule field and in Hyrule town and Hyrule castle. Plus lot of tough enemies I have always dodged in the outer world. I even climbed up the wall to get to the castle and there were two guardians. I have ancient arrows though and I discovered I can use stasis to freeze them and then attack them. I also got the master sword. I have used it on Ganon in the dungeons and used them on mini guardians in shrines until energy runs out. Now I might just climb one of the pillars and then glide to the top of the castle and just go to Ganon so that way I am skipping lot of stuff and skipping all those enemies. But I have to make sure I get strong weapons first which can be found in the castle.

Now I am back to my Nintendo 3DS and I can get back to my story which I was supposed to finished before Easter and release on my forum for anyone to read. I had been so focused on it I didn’t do anything else online except using the walkthrough and watching some videos about how Ganon is defeated or how to do the Shrines or how to get rupees since you also don’t just get them from smashing things or killing enemies or cutting grass or bushes. There are only a few places like Goron village where you can get rupees from smashing jars or there is a certain enemy you can defeat and they always drop rupees and mighty bananas after you kill them. You just don’t find rupees often but I found most of them from treasure hunting and from selling rocks to a Gerudo in Goron Village and from completing some quests. There is no rupee limit either. There is also no item limit but there is a meal limit because after three pages of it, you can’t carry more. There is also a weapon limit and you collect Korok seeds to allow to carry more weapons or bows or shields.

How do they know?

Tuesday, April 4th, 2017

How does someone know they are asexual than knowing they haven’t met the right person yet or haven’t found a way to enjoy sex yet or because they are a late bloomer?

How does someone know they are gay/lesbian than because they are also a late bloomer and haven’t gotten into girls or boys yet?

How does someone know they are transgender than knowing they don’t want to follow the gender norms and because they just wish they were a man or a woman and want to have the same privilege of another gender?

How does someone know their brains or wired differently than thinking others struggle as much as they do?

How does someone know they are different than lot of people than knowing they only feel that way because they don’t have anything in common as their peers or the same interests?

Some people just know they are asexual or homosexual or transgender or bisexual or even know they have something like a disorder or a disability and some just know they function different and not like the others. Some even know they don’t want kids and knew that from a young age, not because they have no developed that interest yet and some just know they want to have kids because they want to, not because society tells them to and they are expected to have them. My uncle knew he liked boys when he was around eight years old. But he also knew it wasn’t “normal” so he kept it to himself and even tried being straight so he married a woman he loved and then she died from cancer and he decided to come out and started dating guys and met my uncle. Also how do some know being a man or woman have a feeling so they feel like so they know they are agender because they don’t feel either? Even some parents are naive to think if they can convince their children they are something, they will believe them and grow out of it and not live that way. Some even think they can keep their children from knowing they have something so they keep on telling them they’re normal and treat all their children the same so the child will never know they do have a disability and that they are different. My mom did that but yet they still know because I did. I still knew as a child and I guess my parents thought if they kept telling me I was normal, I will believe them and stop thinking I’m different. That didn’t work because I wasn’t dumb. Kids are smarter than adults realize. Kids know more than a parent realizes. I call that naive of what parents do. They think they can control what their kids can think but sometimes a child is smarter than that. A parent might try convincing their transgender child there is nothing wrong with them and they are a girl, not a boy but the son still knows he is not a girl despite what body he has. A parent might think if they let their “daughter” be a tomboy and do boy things and not not do gender norms and let their kids play with either boy or girl toys regardless of what gender they are, “she” might get over the fact that”she” is a boy and just accept “her” body. I have actually read that in articles about transgender and parents saying they thought if they could do this, their kid would get over it and they said they didn’t know because they thought it was a phase or thought their kid felt that way because of gender norms. Yes I call that naivety. It’s only transphobic if the parent was aware of the whole transgender thing and it appearing in young children but they ignore it and not consider it for their child so they stay in denial and just lie to themselves because they don’t want a transgender child. But for my parents I am sure they were only doing it to make me feel better than being abliest but I was too smart for it. Also my mother might have had her own definition of the word normal and a parent on youtube called her autistic child normal. She said he is normal but his brain just works different.

I was right

Monday, April 3rd, 2017

So in my last post about the “offensive” comment I had made, not too long later the mother decided to give us in update with her situation so she posted that she had talked to her brother and his wife and to their five year old and it turned out he did it on purpose. The brother said they will leave and then the mother was unsure if she should take her kid into ER or not when she was showing worse symptoms. Then all the parents are saying in the thread how they should rush her into ER and don’t just sit there and wonder. Also others are telling her to kick the family out now. But yet not either of them knowledge how correct I was and didn’t even apologize for their down vote. So everyone is now acknowledging how the kid does have problems and needs help and to kick that family out now and she must protect her daughter. Well isn’t that what I had posted about in my “offensive” reply when I said I wouldn’t leave my kid alone ever and I would have kept everything locked away?

People are weird and rarely will anyone admit you are right and apologize.

No one wants to believe a kid can be evil

Friday, March 31st, 2017

This comment got four down votes as of right now:


I believe evil exists and I believe some are born with it. Jeffrey dahmar is an example and it’s possible a child to be evil. But no one wants to believe it. That kid might be sick. If it were my kid I would be rushing for hospitals and psychistrists and putting locks on everything and never let the kid out of my sight. Are the parents not aware?


Some parent online made this post here:

This is going to be a long story

My brother has this 4 soon to be 5 year old that I wouldn’t trust leaving my daughter alone with. He does some pretty sadistic things. He hits my child on purpose and the smile on his face when he laughs and smiles about it gives me chills. When he was younger he use to bite his siblings and niece’s and nephew’s. He’s grown out of that stage but now he scratches, punches, etc.

Today I’m writing cause it concerns me of what he actually did last night and I’m concerned for my child’s health. I just had woken up to make my child a bottle of milk (she has SPD and still is on bottles. As I was pouring her a bottle of milk I poured myself a glass as well and when I took a drink it tasted awful, like pure rubbing alcohol. At first I thought it was the glassed I poured it in but then I smelled the jug of milk and noticed there was a bottle of rubbing alcohol on the kitchen counter that was empty. I got panicked, spilled it all down the drain and started searching up what would happen if it was drank (I’m in panic mode now) I’m not sure if the bottle I made her previously was contaminated or not but she has SPD so I’m hoping and praying that it wasn’t cause she would know. I have no proof he did it but I just know in my heart he did. He’s a little sadistic shit of kid.

Anyway should I take my child to the E.R. So far she’s acting fine in her sleep but I’m not sure. She had a fever earlier but I think that was cause to her teeth (she’s been complaining her teeth hurt) has a dentist appointment tomorrow. Once again I don’t know if the milk had been contaminated earlier or just 4-5 hours ago.

Also, my brother and his wife are temporarily staying with us and because they had a conflict with my other brother they were staying with about their kids. So I feel like if I bring this up they’ll be devastated but their kid is just too bad

So it’s offensive that if your kid behaves like psychopath and it’s beyond normal,  you look for doctors and mental hospitals to help your child so they won’t be a psychopath and they learn to control it and it’s offensive to keep everything locked away so your kid can use anything as a weapon and keeping them in your sight so they won’t do anything evil because you are watching and you can’t trust them for a few minutes or in the other room by themselves. Also the mother said in her comments the kid is actually five going on six. But no one wants to believe it a kid can be that bad and you did nothing wrong to make your kid that way.

My mother’s strange language

Monday, March 13th, 2017

Last night I was taking a shower and I asked my mother if my brother took home his son’s presents my dad forgot to give him. My mom said he was leaving it here for his kids to play with because they can’t play it at their house (must be against the HOA rules) because he might not see it again if he left it at *Marlene’s, his ex.

I had no idea she would steal it and not let my brother ever take it home with him but my mom said she didn’t steal it because it was her present too because it was for her son. I said but she might not let my brother take it with him and my mom said no he might want to play it with his kids but it would be at Marlene’s because he forgot it. So I said but he might never get it back right because he would never see it again. My mom said that is not what she meant so I pointed out to her she said he might never see it again so that means she wouldn’t let him have it and would just keep it at her house and not ever give it back. My mom then said she can see how I got that wrong picture in my head and said what she meant. It still didn’t make sense why she would say my brother might never see it again.

What did she mean? She meant that he might not be able to play with it with his kids because it would be at Marlene’s house. I didn’t say again to my mother “But she might not give it back to him if he ever tries to get it from her to bring is home with the kids when he picks them up for his turn with them. But I didn’t want to get her upset and frustrated for saying the same thing over and over so I kept it to myself because she will keep saying that is not what she meant. She did say hew might never see it again. How can that not mean she won’t ever let him have it again if he tries to bring it back with him? She even said she meant it literally. No she did not. Just another example of my mom’s strange language.

Why I think the whole Cassandra thing is bullshit

Monday, March 13th, 2017

I do not doubt that people on the autism spectrum can cause problems for their partners and give them problems and stress but I do not agree with the whole Cassandra Affective Disorder thing. Here’s why?

Every person with a disorder is going to be hard for anyone. Even being with an ASD person as an ASD person is going to be hard too. Being with someone who has an eating disorder or an anxiety disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, ADHD, PTSD, etc is going to be hard for everyone who is with them. Hell even having PMS is going to make it hard for your partner. But you know what, there has not been any alternate labels created for those who have been affected by other disorders so why only autism?

Why isn’t there a label for those who are affected by partners who have any cluster B disorders or a label for those who are affected by a partner who has anxiety or OCD or ADHD, cerebral palsy, being confined to a wheelchair,  PTSD, etc.

So this whole Cassandra thing is ridiculous. We already have a diagnoses like PTSD, anxiety, and depression so why a new label? What is so special about being in a relationship with someone on the autistic spectrum that it warrants its own label? Because it means deprivation and they say that the autistic person withholds love and support from their partners so it harms them but that still doesn’t make sense because a person with any disorder is going to cause problems for their partner and there are no separate labels for it. What about none ASD people out there who also don’t show love and support to their partners and also lack empathy for them? Why not make a label for that too? So why only ASD?

What about people who are asexual or have a low sex drive or for some reason lacks interest in sex? Why not make that a label because after all the partner is going to be starved from sex.

Or what about people who are introverts and their partner is a extrovert, should we have a label for that because they might be starved from socializing and being with their friends or from going out with their partner to places?

What about people who have sensory processing issues? Shall we also have a label for that because their partners might also be starved from giving affection to them and be starved from having “normal” sex and not being able to do affection and love?

What about people who suck at giving gifts, shall we have a label for that because the partner might be starved from getting good gifts from them so therefore it’s going to affect them thinking their partner doesn’t put enough effort into it? Yes this is a real thing because there is a thread on Reddit about getting bad gifts from their partner but yet they can give great baby shower gifts. Then there is the other thread about their partner suck with birthdays so they act like a jerk on that day so maybe there should be a label for that too.

This is how silly it gets with this whole Cassandra thing and why it’s discriminatory and why so many ASD people object to this label.





A distraction

Monday, March 13th, 2017

I took my kids to The Art of the Brick and they had all these Lego artwork displays by Nathan Sawaya and my children loved all the displays. That helped kept my mind off my former “friend” and my stories. They also had an area where the exit is for kids to build with Legos and they had a little store there selling Lego books and Lego building set and selling postcards for The Art of the Brick and t shirts. Then we went to the cafeteria and had lunch and then we went to the exhibit hall upstairs and their theme this time was recycling and saving the environment and they had their oldest display there which was the lit up body that was at the Chicago’s World’s Fair in 1933 and then our local museum purchased it in 1958 and it’s been their oldest display at the museum. I honestly didn’t remember seeing it there ever when I would go there as a kid. They still had their display there about pregnancies and the baby growing inside the mother and showing the stages. My son thought they looked like aliens but I told him that is what babies look like when they are growing inside the mother and forming and he and his sister looked like that too. Then we went to the Science Playground that is for kids six and under and they all play in there and it’s like The Children’s Museum. They played hard and they had animal life in there, water works where you play with water and they had a fake kitchen and supermarket and balls to play with and they had a room where kids played with building stuff and they had this putty stuff kids played with and they had an area for infants who are not yet walking but some moms still had their little ones in there who were walking.

My daughter got soaking wet from playing with water and we stayed until closing time and we left and my brother was still here so my son got to see his cousins and they played together. My dad changed my daughter out of her wet clothes and I changed her pull up and put a clean one on her.

But I feel happy despite not talking to my “friend” anymore and one of my other online friends gave me advice for story writing to write for myself not for others because I enjoy it and it helps me. I still would love to share them and talk about my characters but I can’t if it’s going to stress me out because my “friend” would rather be a politician and thought that was more important and I am thinking maybe he didn’t want to talk to me anymore but yet acted like he still wanted to and was acting like a true friend so that is very confusing. Why would someone act like a true friend but still throw it all away by still making racist comments?

I turned off notifications so I wouldn’t see any new messages from him. I don’t really delete conversations even though I have thought about doing it several times with him over the last couple of years whenever he would upset me.

But happiness is better than being stressed out because of my stories. I had to make a decision between my own interest and my mental health.

Had to make a tough decision

Saturday, March 11th, 2017

Someone who I had been friends with for four years now I had to drop as a friend because he wouldn’t quit making racist comments. I had told him to stop and if he did it again, we’re through and he did it again so I guess I was not that important to him as a friend. I have tried to educate him telling him how stupid this all is and to judge people by their skin color or religion or nationality. I have even used analogies and he was still racist. I even put it in my story and he is still racist. He will keep on stereotyping and won’t stop. He is fine with singling out a group and it doesn’t matter if any of them are innocent, it doesn’t matter if you are a Mexican and a US citizen. He still thinks you should be lumped with the illegals and be thrown out of the US and that any of the newcomers from Mexico should not come into the US and become US Citizens. That bothered me. The last comment he made that pissed me off that I thought was racist was “My god Christina is a Muslim, I thought she was Natalie’s cousin.” And this was after I had my character say she didn’t practice that religion and no one in her immediate family does and no one in her family life has joined any terrorist groups or do Sharia. She was just a regular person like us and she got singled out for her skin color at work by a patient and my friend thought this was okay?

I couldn’t take it anymore so I have had enough of his bigotry and racism. You don’t need to be smart or have a high IQ to be stupid. He is so into stereotypes he will not learn. Instead of “Oh I didn’t know she had a Muslim background, I guess not all of them do terrorism and do family torture” it was that other comment he made.

The focus should be on illegal immigrants. Not on a group. The focus should be on trying to make it harder for people to enter our country who are non US citizens. But how to do it without tearing families apart and for those who were adopted by US parents but never gave them a US citizenship. They shouldn’t be kicked out of our country because of their adopters ignorance. Now anyone who was under 18 at the time when the law came into affect in 2001 who were adopted automatically became US citizens. Now anyone outside the country who gets adopted is an automatic US citizen but that only applies to those who are under 18.

But every time I lose a friend I always make a list of reasons why they sucked as a friend and reasons why they were a good friend and the con list has always been larger than the pro list.


Doesn’t answer all my questions

Is against that the Holocaust happened

Likes Trump

Likes Hitler

I don’t know anything personal about him

I don’t know his name

Is racist

Stereotypes too much

Likes to lump people in a group because of his stereotyping

Thinks anyone is stupid for having a learning disability or different learning style



Believes 9/11 happened

Does not believe in bullying

Likes stupid people unless they are too stupid

Loves my Natalie stories and he is someone for me to engage my interest with him


Yes I will miss him because of Natalie. But I had to make a tough decision because it’s not worth my mental health and I know what happens to me when I get very upset. I have a hard time functioning and it’s not fair to my kids.


The Switch is Out

Thursday, March 9th, 2017

And they sold out fast. I wonder if there are a shortage of them and they will be like the Wii where Nintendo deliberately made limited supply of them so they would always sell out and be hard to find in stores. My husband wants to get me one but I am not interested in them because I don’t play a lot of video games anymore and I mostly do my phone now. I don’t do much on my 3DS so getting a Switch would be a waste of money.